ZIdane or Zidan?, episode 4: Feelings

PS: THis is taken from Zidane's/Zidan's POV....

THis is the OP for this week!!! ( CLICK HERE)

Damn, that feeling is here again...

My feelings get sucked into a black hole, as if they weren't there in the first place. It's...somewhat nice.

Snap out of this! I'm sure I'm wreaking havoc with Sano and Anya. Why, do I feel like this?

I smell something. I taste something.

Why do I like it? It tastes sweet, like one of Leah-chan's cakes from Home Ed. Hers and Clarry-chan's are better than my Lagsane. I couldn't bake a cake to live. Hah, I'm liking it.

But I know this is somewhat wrong. Sure, nothing is wrong with a sweet treat, but I feel...weird as I take it. I feel different. I can feel something surface from...inside of me.

Get me the heck out of here. I'm not liking this one bit.

I feel lightheaded, I'm slipping away.

But, I have to wake up. I'm not sure what to do. Should I pinch myself, like what they do in the movies. Yeah, that would do a good job, if I'm being sarcastic.

What would happen if I just let myself sleep? WHat sould I do, Dad?

You should listen to your heart

Who are you?

I am you and you are me. We are the same, except, well maybe, I'm a lot more cooler that you...

Yeah, right.

And I know how to control my bloodlust, unlike you.

So? I know I want something but... okay, why does my chest feel heavy?

Better wake up before you drain the person you call Sano.

Huh?

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My eyes flutter open. I smell something sweet, it makes my mouth water. But, it wasn't a table full of cakes that met my eye. It was a room, full of blood.

Anya's on the floor, bleeding from her temple. My eyes widen, I would believe if someone said they were as large as saucer plates. I didn't do that, did I?

" Anya!" I shout, getting up from the somehow sitting position I got myself in. Then I see that Sano's pale body drops with a thunk.

" Sano?"

He's paler than usual. His eyes are closed, as if in a peaceful dream. But I see blood spread against his neck.

No. This isn't happening.

But it is

I run. I'm such a coward! But I can't think of anything else. I run as far as my legs could carry me. My heart beats so hard I can hear it in my heart. Atleast this is proof that I'm alive.

Vampires don't have heartbeats, right? So I'm not one! But even that doesn't convince me. Damn, I hate myself. WHy did I have to be born...like this. Dad, if you never knocked up mom....I wouldn't have had this life.

Mom, if your there somewhere in heaven, please ask god, even if I don't really believe in Him, kill me here and now. I don't want to live this life! I'm a true coward. There are people who I can turn to. Clarry-chan and Leah-chan.

But what if I hurt them instead? Then I'd be an outlaw. I'm sure that that the police and those creepy people who were parts of Dad's thing are on my tail now...

Where can I go? First, I need to calm down. But where to go?!

Wait, it has to be somewhere calming. I know! The beach!

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Clarry and Leah step out of a convinince store, carrying large paper bags, filled to the brim with food. Probably Italian.

" Umm, remind me again. WHy do we have to buy food for Zidan?" Clarry asked. Not that she wasn't the caring type, it was just that she was the one carrying most of the bags.

" Because Zidan probably need something to eat! Have you seen the house? There practicly nothing there to eat! No wonder he gobbles up everything we make in Home Ed!"

* Teardrop forms on Clarry's head*

" He eats it because he doesn't like the canteen food..."

" But it's a crime not to like the canteen food, especially the Bandung Mee!" Leah says as her mouth waters at the thought of the food.

* The Mi Bandung at my school is okay...quite good for a school but I've tasted better. But I'm thinking they make Curry Mee instead of Mi Bandung*

* More teardrops form on Clarry's head*

" You and Zidan are the same, probally spiritual twins... but he likes our food like you like the Bandung Mee"

" Hey, Clare! Isn't that Zidan?" Leah points to a boyish person running towards the harbour.

" That is him. Why is he running?"

" Let's go and see!"

Leah runs and leaves Clarry at the door with all of the paper bags.

" Why did I get caught with people who have ADHD?" she said, placing the bags in the compartment at the back of her bicycle and riding it towards the the harbour, hoping to catch them.

AND THAT'S THATS A WRAP!

Wow, I spent 1 hour and 30 something minutes to write this...

I hope this was up to your expectations. If it's not, give me Ideas as I am running out of them. But maybe I might be offline for the next two weeks because of the damn August test...I HATE EXAMS!

Well, did you like the Song? I really like it....because It reminds me of me and Fariq-koi. Yes, I'm sure that he doesn't like me and it's practicely a lose-lose situation...

Oh, why is life so cruel? Looks like I'm going to be Fariq-sexual and Bi at the same time. It's been a long time I've had a crush on someone other than Ishihara Yuuko (XXXHolic. She's a Beatiful and mysterious woman! Just the suposed type I would go for...well, if I didn't like Fariq-koi so much) or Ken'ichi Matsuyama or Hibari-sama or more brotherly feeling towards Mukuro ( who looks like Faye Seiichiro, a cousin of Seiichiro Sano as in the book...opps) or a feeling of wanting to top Tsuna or someother cute charecter....

Okay, am I weird or is it just me? Your going to answer I'm weird, which I am.

Your friend,

Seiichiro Sano