I fucking hate this stupid life.

Yesterday, we spent the whole day out at a mall named the Curve. I went out with my mom, stupid bro, one of my best friends Sara Cortez and her mom in their Avanza car. So we spent like 7 hours in that mall mainly because of my mom and her mom's looking at clothes and the rest of the things women do at a clothes store. My mom gave me RM 50, okay? She said, pocket money. Okay, that means that I can use it for whatever I want, right?

I bought myself a tie from Kitchen for RM 20.95 and a super cool skull ring for RM 19. My mother was like blabbing her head off on why I bought my fucking tie and I was like " Come on! You told me to buy anything I wanted, kan? So I happened to find a tie that I was looking for quite a long time. I beli, you marah I buat ape?"

So we spent like the whole day there, waiting for them when they went to Debenhams, Nichi and Metrojaya. That's like over 5 hours coupled altogether and shit. I never said anything when they did that and she says that me buying my tie is wasting my money. YOU TOLD ME TO USE THE DAMNED MONEY FOR GOD'S SAKE!

But that place doesn't even have proper places to take pictures and I only got a few nice shots. We made a few frikin vids on what we want for out future and what were our dream persons. All of that with the stupid imbicle of a bro tagging along, fuck him. He's such a damn mama's boy and a spoilt one on that. My mom mopes up everything he does and it's so fucking annoying.

Fuck. This. Fucking. Life.

I'd be better off shopping on my own if I have to face this whenever they give me money. Stupid hypocrites. FUCK THEM.

My stupid bro pulak, he's a frikin mama's boy who mom sucks everything up. Just because he's 7 doesn't mean that he's innocent.

A person who hates spending holidays with my hypocrite family

Seiichiro Sano

Yeap, almost a month

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I haven't blogged for almost another month....I am a horrible person....

Well, to be frank, nothing interesting had happened within the month...and the holidays are killing me from the boring-ness of it...Save me!

I have been drawing, sleeping and reading fan fics while I should have been studying for 8 books and a scanner =_='''

I am a lazy bum who needs a very long holiday in somewhere far, like Japan ( I wanna go there as an exchange student when I come of age)

Artwork has decreased dangerously over the past few weeks. Part of it is because of the lack of proper stadionary. My black pens have finished their ink and I always use them to colour in the black bits of any drawings that I do and the line art. All my pencil colours have become blunt and I made a horrible, irrevocable mistake on my Hanged Man Tarot Card Drawing...I almost cried it...there's a big blue smudge on it and I'll properly have to make a copy of that one...Haizh, why do these things have to happen to me?

Yeah, I know this is a short post but I have been very bored all break so I haven't much to say...

Your Friend,

Seiichiro Sano

The 30 day Challenge - Day 1

* I am not that fat...the shirt was puffed up!*

Day 01-A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

1. I am an otaku that can talk for hours if you ask me anything about anime that I like.

2. I am a person that would really want to try a Russian Vodka ( I write about François chugging them down like water because I'm JEALOUS!) but I can't because I'm Islam. Thank god...or I'll be an alcoholic!

3. I can't draw girls properly without flinching.

4. To me: Boy x Boy is heaven, Girl x Girl is Earth, and Boy x Girl is Hell

5. I sleep at 3 am daily, unless I am totally tired.

6. I like it so much when people mistake me for a boy.

7. I am a Bisexual who would like a super hot girlfriend first.

8. To me: Ji Hoo should have been with Jun Pyo. Jan Di should have been with her Ga Eul and Kim Bum should have been with Woo Bin * Boys Over Flower, Korean drama*

9. Kim Bum was the one who made me change my hair to become what it was today....I mean before my new haircut...

10. My hair was like a telephone cord when I was a kid.

11. I will use any type of book or piece of paper * as long as it's not toilet paper or shit infested or something like that* to draw if I feel the urge to do it * LOL, not DO it as in DO it..Do it as in draw*

12. I have sick fantasies of Tsuna wrapped in nothing but ribbons laying on the bed for Hibari * Cue Nosebleed*

13. I used to and usually have a laugh like Bart Simson.

14. I join online things * such as Tumbler and dA* for fun and end up getting addicted to them

15. I listen to all kinds of music, no matter what language or how long it is, if it is nice to hear and my head agrees with me. I'd take Heavy Metal if I could sing to it...but I can't because most of it is screaming and I don't want to kill my vocal cords, Yo!

And that is my 1st day!

Your Friend,

Seiichiro Sano

End of Form 1

Life is as always, an adventure. As we embark on the year end holiday that is given to us every end of the year, it also marks the end of our first year of High School ( well, tenically, its the first year of Middle School but in Malaysia, we call it Sekolah Menegah or Sekolah Tinggi, which can be translated as High School)

End of the first year of going into a new school, meeting new friends. New teachers, new foes. It is, afterall, a big adventure that most of us are lucky enough to go on. I myself have witness many changes in myself

I have suddenly developed the urge to grow taller and have a six pac, have this obbsession on Yaoi, which is considered something forbidden for my religion, have become a hardcore otaku that can go on talking for hours about the animes that I really like, such as Katekyo Hitman Reborn and Kuroshitsuji. I also have discovered that I am a Bisexual, meaning that I don't really care about gender when it comes to love.

As such, I have also developed into a human that doesn't really show his own feelings but will explode in tears and rage when provoked to a level where I can't take it. I once got sick ( well, just a slight cold that no one noticed) because I cried while in the shower and ended up soaking in cold water for 30 minutes and I then broke down in my room, whispering that no one loved me and I was pathetic so no one cared for me. I couldn't even get the person that I have liked since I was 10.

How pathethic am I? A heck of a lot.

If I am going to bore you to death, then you may leave. The world has enough haters. Kindly get the fuck out of my blog and begone with you.

I wanted to be loved. I wanted to be cared for. I felt like the world was crashing down on me and no one else could rescue me. I didn't even tell my friends about it. I wanted some one to look at me enough so that they notice that I was different from before.

I was very depressed and even thought of killing myself...or just killing Alois Trancy over and over again in my head but I guess Claude beat me to it! HAHA! YAY FOR CLAUDE!

Nah, I was never a person to get suicidal, even if I have only lived for 13 years. Sure I was depressed but I never had the tendency to kill myself because it was stupid.

I really need someone to talk to and someone to...I don't know? Be a shoulder to cry on or whatever that shit is called. I am alone in the world, no one can fully understand me, people talk about me behind my back and what am I supposed to do?

Just keep quiet? Just pretend that I don't know or notice? I am doing that now. And it only works for 20% of the time. Why is it so hard for me to have a perfectly happy life?

Maybe it was supposed to make me stronger in the long run? Well then, no shit Sherlock, it ain't working!

As I sit down at my usual spot with my drawings around me and a stack of blank A4 paper in my file, I thinking, what the hell am I going to draw next.

I've already done 10 of the Major Archana tarot card deck and I've finished the drawing about the growth of Sano and finally deciding on what he/she looks like in the distant future, vamped up Bran's Scyth to make it look as if I was bleeding from the skull at the end of it's staff and make Zachary look even more girly than he already is...and now I face myself with the biggest problem...in like a year.

How to colour Hibari's hair in a potrait by only using an Artline 250 0.4?

Yes, I am that fussy when it comes to blacks! Everything that is black NEEDS to be coloured with a gel pen or marker. No matter what the consuqueses

Your friend,

Seiichiro Sano

End of school

A little doodle I did for my friend on dA comment

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!

WAKAKAKAKAKAKA! * gone crazy like Siva*

Today ( actually on he 11...internet was getting to my nerves ever time I tried to blog this...it didn't go through!) I was was was one of the worst and funniest days at school!

No one came...not even Sara-chan...there are only 15 people in the class and only 3 of the teachers came into the classroom today so we had a perfect blast!

It started off like normal, and was pretty boring. Me, Lily-chan, Sevanis-chan, Wani-chan and Sharvenna-chan were playing Uno and Rotten Cabbage all day long..at least before me and Wani-chan had to go to take care of 1 Jasmine. We first played a round of checkers and of course, Rotten Cabbage before we got bored and then took out our books and I started to draw. I sketched Cross in his apperance of the magician in the Major Archana Tarot Card project.

But the real fun, was after we came back

First, we started another round of Uno before I went out of the class and noticed that no one was there. 1B had gone to the libary and the Peralihan class was downstairs so we were left with about 4 classes on the 3rd floor. Then, I heard some crazy laughing and saw Siva and Yim running while Siva was laughing like an manic while trying to jump of the building.

Then, they found some left-over rafia or whatever you call it and Yim tried to tie it to the fan so

Siva could hang himself...but then Roo took it from Yim and strangled Siva while dragging him behind..they knocked down a couple of desks and chairs so yeah, I couldn't stop laughing.

Vernon and Baka-Itachi-Sama ( BIC) came into the class after me and Roo waved at them from the 3rd floor coridor. They came upstairs and made a rachet with the other guys. Puan Nik asked them to go downstairs but they stayed anyways until there was 10 minutes till D-Time.

Siva and me were alone at the back of the class while the others were in the front when he started to laugh maniacly while trying to again, jump out of the window and banged his head on the large corkboard thingy. I laughed so hard that my ribs hurt and it really hurt! But I was still lauhging like no tomorrow, so HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

After that, they tied Yim down on a chair and played out scenes from the Indian Movies that they watched. Vernon kept forgetting the lines and it ended up being very hilarous. In one part, Roo asked him to act a scene by an actor called Singam. He said I hate Singam and Yim said " I like Singam" and he then said " Shut up okay, I just blew off your future!" and mimiced shooting Yim's...Balls X"D

So yeah, it was crazy! He kept on repeating the same words when when he forgot the lines and

Me and Sevanis-chan were laughing away and again, my ribs hurt like hell!

The girls sat at one corner, doing their own work such as playing card games and Qin-chan was writing something in Chinese...I think it maybe a love letter or something like that. I wish I learnt Chinese better when I was a kid...She said it would be very nice if I could read it.

So yeah, it was like that until we went back! A pretty memorable day but it would be better if I could bring this to school to take some pictures...it is after all the last days of our Form 1.

Haa, good bye Form 1, hello HOLIDAYS!

Your Friend,

Seiichiro Sano

BOORRRING day at school

I wish to do this to the one I love, but my koi doesn't like me back. When will I be loved?

Argh! I was so damn boring at school! * but I managed to ink and correct two pictures, so it was kinda worth it*

Kyoko-chan and Usagi-chan didn't come to school! ARGH! They left me alone with Sara-chan....and she left me with Wani-chan and Wani-chan had this great book that I'll only get to borrow next year...

Haiz, what to do?

This few days * Tomorrow, Friday, next Monday and Tuesday* are the last of our Form 1 lives. I'll be turning 14 next January 3...and it'll be on the day we come back to school. MUAHAHA! Going to go total 'gila' * Crazy* mode with the comic1 I am going to finish the entire seires and add in some extras so hand in the money come Jan 3rd~! * think of it as a birthday present...I want one...I haven't received one this year :'(*

I had to take off the damn curtains from the classroom and give them to all the girls...I got caught with one too...I hate this!

So, I inked * finally!* my High Priestess of my Major Arcana tarot cards and my Beach Scene for Alla Valse...which I both did during the exams that was like...2 weeks ago? Haa, I'm such a lazy bone! But there are a few problems....

I made Cross look like a kid * I meant for him to look like a kid but I'm unsure about his hand positions and his fingers. I have trouble making them NOT look like claws or bananas* and I can't seem to draw a bikini...you know...hotly? Infact...I sure if I could blush * I can't blush....maybe its because of my skin colour..can you blush?*, I would be blushing like a tomato...and its not because I 'feel' something when I draw it. Its just because I can't draw it propely, no matter what I try!

It's the same problem with each and every girl I draw. I mess up their busts big time! One could be big, one could be small, they could be too small or too big, unbalanced, wrong levels...and so on. GOD, why can't I draw the perfect girl?! If I draw them flat in the front and make em have boobs when I draw them sideways * I used to do that when I was 11*...I'd have a really big problem.

People would be wondering if my characters were male or female...since I draw them pretty much like boys nowdays..even the girls would sometimes look like boys, especially if they have short hair and those wise eyes * the small ones that most guys have in anime*

I even draw guys with long hair * and I mean long!* For example, one of my twins, Zack from the Kisah Remaja comic. I drew him with long, Kagamine twins yellow hair and basically, he looks like Rin, okay?

Mimi looks like a longer haired version of Len. Both of them would look the same if they let their hair down. Mimi ties hers in Hatsune Miku ponytails while Zack does it like a samurai! * you know, the long, spiky looking hair?...let me just find a scanner and then you'll be able to see it*

Is now trying to draw the bikini properly

Your Friend,

Seiichiro Sano

Yeah, this is a short post...

Deepavali

5/11/10

So it's 5 as I'm writing this

Just came back from my tata's ( grandfather in Indian) house. I had lunch there, ate some vegetarian chicken..I don;t know how they make it or classify myself. I'll try asking dad later!

I'm currently chilling in the sea side chalet....and its too bright to take any pics, I;ll try when its a little later.

Currently watching Australia, its a very interesting movie...and my dad changed it! HAIYA!!!! I WANNA SEE!

He's currently watching a guy getting hit in the cock one too many times. and I'm laughing out loud..but disappointed in watching it...I wanna watch Australia....

YES, He changed it~! And Nicole Kidman's seeing a kangaroo...and is awed by it...and then, BAM!

It gets shot! Roling on the floor laughing...and she trying to not watch Hugh Jakman take a bath. TRUE CLASSIC!

Their talking about horses and she think its about..you know what! ( and I'm laughing, again)

My mom's collage friend meet up with her...and bought her a KFC meal while we were starving in the hotel chalet will little to no food...really, damn my life! Its the same everytime we come where...no food...* mouth waters at the thought of food*

SHE THOUGHT I WAS A BOY! \>^

I was wearing my white short sleeved hoodie with a tank top/ camisoul in it...and of course my hair~~ Haaa, so damn proud~!

THis is how I'm supposed to look * side view of it*

*

How do I look? Sorry for the low light condition, there's only so much you can do with a webcam.

My cousins were there today, the hockey players! Anisha and Ganesha, the power duo, what I call them!

Ganesha is already taller that my dad by one inch and Anesha is almost the same height as my dad so they were making a big fuss about it. And I'm sulking because....well, they're taller than me...even if it doesn't show that much...OKAY, it DOES show that much.* sulking mode*

After dinner at a shop, we went back to tata's house for the 2nd time in the day. I was pretty shocked when I saw the actor that acted as Sivaji and was the main actor in the new hit movie ( at least to my friends...I only saw sneak peaks because...I don't know?) Indegram. He was....hairless! And he looked pretty weird.

My uncle, Ramu, was kinda showing off because my dad asked him to. He did all the breakdancing and things that I would rather be photographer to than rather doing it...too tiring and it could do the bad type of wonders to my already weak back ( yes, I have the back of a 75 year old because of all the heavy lifting I do and no proper excercise...yeah, I"M PAHTETIC, :)*

My cousin...who is a few cm's to be taller than me ( yes, I'm still sulking...comment all you want. I hate being average height...in a family ( father's side at least...) that excels in sports and most of them are above 175cm, excluding my tata and pati, wanted to take a picture of me. Her friends wanted to see 'that tomboy'. Lord knows what she told the audience of perverted chinese students ( she told me itself, okay!)

She's kinda like the total opposite of me and she's also a person who likes anime but she's kinda of a late bloomer in anime. She started to watch anime at the age of 9, while some of us

*Coff*me*coff* started watching at the age of 4.

She started with Card Captor Sakura, I started with Samurai X. I like shonen, action anime, and she likes shojo, cutesy, girly animes. Not that I can say that all of them are bad. Ouran High School Host club is pretty nice to watch, with Tamaki and Hikaru ( or was it Kaoru?) falling in love in the funniest ways with Haruhi...which I am so damn jelous of because she's flat ( sarcastic laugh)

And now I'm back in the hotel chalet, laying down on the day bed, no blanket and the aircond is probly going at 16 celcius...and I'm freezing, no damn blanket ( stupid useless hotel! Your supposed to give us the room that we bought! Haiz...damn my life) while waiting for Too Fast, To Furious ( the first one) to play back after the midnight news on TV3

( a TV station that has no respect for anime fans...they keep on repeating the damn anime episodes! To the offcials that may read this post, FUCK YOU! * waves middle finger while giving the middle finger salute to them*) while listening to a music list fulled with the Nico Nico Chorus's that I downloaded yesterday oth of pure bordome.

AND it's back on! Bye bi for tonight!

6/11/10

Woke up..had some tea ( my dad and BroAho finished the Milo...) and is now currently writing the blog post.

And this is me chilling aftet taking my bath.

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I have Beast's Shock playing. I tried to dance the

Man Man Ha Ni by U-kiss in the bathroom while taking my morning shower ( with HOT WATER! I don't have it at home and if you want it you have to boil it myself. Because of that, I don't really get sick alot since it boosts my body immune system...or something my 3rd grade BM teacher, Encik Halid said to me years ago) and

I pretty much failed at it! * laughs manicly*

My dad told me off because my pants were kinda falling off my hips * but it;s like that! I forgot to pack my belt along! Maybe he didn't notice it before) The green cargo pants that can be used for cosplays of Dino and Spanner * sadly, no green top* Let me show you a picture of it, ok?

There's no difference, right?

Currently at my mom's friends house, she's a real nice person.

Spent an hour at there then went out for dinner at this place that sells this thing called Nasi Arab. Since there wer five of us, we got a HUGE plate of rice and a whole chicken. Its very cheap, being only RM 56 for a whole set of the rice, chicken cold water, Shai ( tea mixed with mint, it's pretty sweet and makes the meal less tiring to eat) and apple juice from Arab. If you tried to get something like that from KL, I'm sure that it would cause a heck of a lot more!

And that shop was called Nasi Arab Damsyik. It's seems to be a popular place, there were already a lot of people when we got there but there were more after we finished. Sorry, webcam can't take night pictures so I can't take any pictures without it being black mush...Hais, I really need a proper camera! ( I want a DSL...)

My BroAho is watching Pucha on Disney ( we don't have Astro at home and the ariel's busted big time..so yeah, we live without watching the news...or even cartoons), Dad's in the toilet, sitting in the tub ( they have a jacuzzi thingy in here! Or at least the tub....) and I am perfectly wasted because of the Arab Rice...

After not really eating a meal for the whole day, something like that is a shock for the system...but we still have some pizza that I ordered from the hotel for lunch, which was the first time trying to order something from the hotel...after about 5 mins trying to get the coffee house's number, my dad finally told me that I have to call the operator first, then she'll patch me to room sevice, and the leftovers of the Arab Rice.

And one of Matryoshka's Nico Nico Choruses is playing...its nice listening to the song. It's currently high tide now, with the gentle sea waves swaying ( is that they way to explain it?), it's pretty peaceful here. A firework erupts once in a while, because it's the second day of Deepavali.

A gentle breeze sometimes blows..you can't really feel it here because it';s getting blocked by all the chalets, but from the second floor car park and the as you comeout of the hall way that leads you to the chalets, you can seriously feel it. And there's a waft of barbeque! At leasat from the carpark.

I'm here, feeling the breeze that is kinda non-existant...while writing this blog post alone. Haa, life is good, no? Have to lower the screen brightness if I want the battery to last longer.

Haiz...well, I'm off for tonight, I wanna try and draw something...but I hear this weird kind of music...and I'm not sure if it's coming from Glorry Beach Resort ( the hotel that has the whole beach to itself and is right next to this one) or it maybe a mermaid song...you never know!

Maybe I'll meet Ariel! * laughs manicly again*

But if your alone...this place seems kinda scary...Oh, WHAT ON EARTH AM I TALKING ABOUT!!! BAD THOUGHTS, BAD THOUGHTS!

But it wouldn't be so bad if the Flying Dutchman or the Black Pearl comes right up to my balchony and kidnapes me. That'd be nice, even if there only nasty pirates and theres no internet there at all * unless you have the GPS thingy that allows you to hack into the millitary that I don't think they have it in reality*

7/11/10

I spent around 30 mins today to take some pictures of the resort. Well, some of them are blurry and it was difficult to take the pictures...and people were looking weirdly at me so eyah. Nothing much to write about yet.

Okay, it starts off with me...I didn't take my bath yet so thats why I have bed hair that I can't really fix. My hair is naturally curly so its like that. When its longer than my shoulder, it turns curly...WHen I was a kid it was even more curly.

Check out my tumblr account for all these pics * uploading it into blogger is a pain because I can't seem to upload many pictures at one time without a disaster happening*

http://1827addiction.tumblr.com/