The 30 day Challenge - Day 1

* I am not that fat...the shirt was puffed up!*

Day 01-A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

1. I am an otaku that can talk for hours if you ask me anything about anime that I like.

2. I am a person that would really want to try a Russian Vodka ( I write about François chugging them down like water because I'm JEALOUS!) but I can't because I'm Islam. Thank god...or I'll be an alcoholic!

3. I can't draw girls properly without flinching.

4. To me: Boy x Boy is heaven, Girl x Girl is Earth, and Boy x Girl is Hell

5. I sleep at 3 am daily, unless I am totally tired.

6. I like it so much when people mistake me for a boy.

7. I am a Bisexual who would like a super hot girlfriend first.

8. To me: Ji Hoo should have been with Jun Pyo. Jan Di should have been with her Ga Eul and Kim Bum should have been with Woo Bin * Boys Over Flower, Korean drama*

9. Kim Bum was the one who made me change my hair to become what it was today....I mean before my new haircut...

10. My hair was like a telephone cord when I was a kid.

11. I will use any type of book or piece of paper * as long as it's not toilet paper or shit infested or something like that* to draw if I feel the urge to do it * LOL, not DO it as in DO it..Do it as in draw*

12. I have sick fantasies of Tsuna wrapped in nothing but ribbons laying on the bed for Hibari * Cue Nosebleed*

13. I used to and usually have a laugh like Bart Simson.

14. I join online things * such as Tumbler and dA* for fun and end up getting addicted to them

15. I listen to all kinds of music, no matter what language or how long it is, if it is nice to hear and my head agrees with me. I'd take Heavy Metal if I could sing to it...but I can't because most of it is screaming and I don't want to kill my vocal cords, Yo!

And that is my 1st day!

Your Friend,

Seiichiro Sano

End of Form 1

Life is as always, an adventure. As we embark on the year end holiday that is given to us every end of the year, it also marks the end of our first year of High School ( well, tenically, its the first year of Middle School but in Malaysia, we call it Sekolah Menegah or Sekolah Tinggi, which can be translated as High School)

End of the first year of going into a new school, meeting new friends. New teachers, new foes. It is, afterall, a big adventure that most of us are lucky enough to go on. I myself have witness many changes in myself

I have suddenly developed the urge to grow taller and have a six pac, have this obbsession on Yaoi, which is considered something forbidden for my religion, have become a hardcore otaku that can go on talking for hours about the animes that I really like, such as Katekyo Hitman Reborn and Kuroshitsuji. I also have discovered that I am a Bisexual, meaning that I don't really care about gender when it comes to love.

As such, I have also developed into a human that doesn't really show his own feelings but will explode in tears and rage when provoked to a level where I can't take it. I once got sick ( well, just a slight cold that no one noticed) because I cried while in the shower and ended up soaking in cold water for 30 minutes and I then broke down in my room, whispering that no one loved me and I was pathetic so no one cared for me. I couldn't even get the person that I have liked since I was 10.

How pathethic am I? A heck of a lot.

If I am going to bore you to death, then you may leave. The world has enough haters. Kindly get the fuck out of my blog and begone with you.

I wanted to be loved. I wanted to be cared for. I felt like the world was crashing down on me and no one else could rescue me. I didn't even tell my friends about it. I wanted some one to look at me enough so that they notice that I was different from before.

I was very depressed and even thought of killing myself...or just killing Alois Trancy over and over again in my head but I guess Claude beat me to it! HAHA! YAY FOR CLAUDE!

Nah, I was never a person to get suicidal, even if I have only lived for 13 years. Sure I was depressed but I never had the tendency to kill myself because it was stupid.

I really need someone to talk to and someone to...I don't know? Be a shoulder to cry on or whatever that shit is called. I am alone in the world, no one can fully understand me, people talk about me behind my back and what am I supposed to do?

Just keep quiet? Just pretend that I don't know or notice? I am doing that now. And it only works for 20% of the time. Why is it so hard for me to have a perfectly happy life?

Maybe it was supposed to make me stronger in the long run? Well then, no shit Sherlock, it ain't working!

As I sit down at my usual spot with my drawings around me and a stack of blank A4 paper in my file, I thinking, what the hell am I going to draw next.

I've already done 10 of the Major Archana tarot card deck and I've finished the drawing about the growth of Sano and finally deciding on what he/she looks like in the distant future, vamped up Bran's Scyth to make it look as if I was bleeding from the skull at the end of it's staff and make Zachary look even more girly than he already is...and now I face myself with the biggest problem...in like a year.

How to colour Hibari's hair in a potrait by only using an Artline 250 0.4?

Yes, I am that fussy when it comes to blacks! Everything that is black NEEDS to be coloured with a gel pen or marker. No matter what the consuqueses

Your friend,

Seiichiro Sano

End of school

A little doodle I did for my friend on dA comment

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!

WAKAKAKAKAKAKA! * gone crazy like Siva*

Today ( actually on he 11...internet was getting to my nerves ever time I tried to blog this...it didn't go through!) I was was was one of the worst and funniest days at school!

No one came...not even Sara-chan...there are only 15 people in the class and only 3 of the teachers came into the classroom today so we had a perfect blast!

It started off like normal, and was pretty boring. Me, Lily-chan, Sevanis-chan, Wani-chan and Sharvenna-chan were playing Uno and Rotten Cabbage all day long..at least before me and Wani-chan had to go to take care of 1 Jasmine. We first played a round of checkers and of course, Rotten Cabbage before we got bored and then took out our books and I started to draw. I sketched Cross in his apperance of the magician in the Major Archana Tarot Card project.

But the real fun, was after we came back

First, we started another round of Uno before I went out of the class and noticed that no one was there. 1B had gone to the libary and the Peralihan class was downstairs so we were left with about 4 classes on the 3rd floor. Then, I heard some crazy laughing and saw Siva and Yim running while Siva was laughing like an manic while trying to jump of the building.

Then, they found some left-over rafia or whatever you call it and Yim tried to tie it to the fan so

Siva could hang himself...but then Roo took it from Yim and strangled Siva while dragging him behind..they knocked down a couple of desks and chairs so yeah, I couldn't stop laughing.

Vernon and Baka-Itachi-Sama ( BIC) came into the class after me and Roo waved at them from the 3rd floor coridor. They came upstairs and made a rachet with the other guys. Puan Nik asked them to go downstairs but they stayed anyways until there was 10 minutes till D-Time.

Siva and me were alone at the back of the class while the others were in the front when he started to laugh maniacly while trying to again, jump out of the window and banged his head on the large corkboard thingy. I laughed so hard that my ribs hurt and it really hurt! But I was still lauhging like no tomorrow, so HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

After that, they tied Yim down on a chair and played out scenes from the Indian Movies that they watched. Vernon kept forgetting the lines and it ended up being very hilarous. In one part, Roo asked him to act a scene by an actor called Singam. He said I hate Singam and Yim said " I like Singam" and he then said " Shut up okay, I just blew off your future!" and mimiced shooting Yim's...Balls X"D

So yeah, it was crazy! He kept on repeating the same words when when he forgot the lines and

Me and Sevanis-chan were laughing away and again, my ribs hurt like hell!

The girls sat at one corner, doing their own work such as playing card games and Qin-chan was writing something in Chinese...I think it maybe a love letter or something like that. I wish I learnt Chinese better when I was a kid...She said it would be very nice if I could read it.

So yeah, it was like that until we went back! A pretty memorable day but it would be better if I could bring this to school to take some pictures...it is after all the last days of our Form 1.

Haa, good bye Form 1, hello HOLIDAYS!

Your Friend,

Seiichiro Sano

BOORRRING day at school

I wish to do this to the one I love, but my koi doesn't like me back. When will I be loved?

Argh! I was so damn boring at school! * but I managed to ink and correct two pictures, so it was kinda worth it*

Kyoko-chan and Usagi-chan didn't come to school! ARGH! They left me alone with Sara-chan....and she left me with Wani-chan and Wani-chan had this great book that I'll only get to borrow next year...

Haiz, what to do?

This few days * Tomorrow, Friday, next Monday and Tuesday* are the last of our Form 1 lives. I'll be turning 14 next January 3...and it'll be on the day we come back to school. MUAHAHA! Going to go total 'gila' * Crazy* mode with the comic1 I am going to finish the entire seires and add in some extras so hand in the money come Jan 3rd~! * think of it as a birthday present...I want one...I haven't received one this year :'(*

I had to take off the damn curtains from the classroom and give them to all the girls...I got caught with one too...I hate this!

So, I inked * finally!* my High Priestess of my Major Arcana tarot cards and my Beach Scene for Alla Valse...which I both did during the exams that was like...2 weeks ago? Haa, I'm such a lazy bone! But there are a few problems....

I made Cross look like a kid * I meant for him to look like a kid but I'm unsure about his hand positions and his fingers. I have trouble making them NOT look like claws or bananas* and I can't seem to draw a bikini...you know...hotly? Infact...I sure if I could blush * I can't blush....maybe its because of my skin colour..can you blush?*, I would be blushing like a tomato...and its not because I 'feel' something when I draw it. Its just because I can't draw it propely, no matter what I try!

It's the same problem with each and every girl I draw. I mess up their busts big time! One could be big, one could be small, they could be too small or too big, unbalanced, wrong levels...and so on. GOD, why can't I draw the perfect girl?! If I draw them flat in the front and make em have boobs when I draw them sideways * I used to do that when I was 11*...I'd have a really big problem.

People would be wondering if my characters were male or female...since I draw them pretty much like boys nowdays..even the girls would sometimes look like boys, especially if they have short hair and those wise eyes * the small ones that most guys have in anime*

I even draw guys with long hair * and I mean long!* For example, one of my twins, Zack from the Kisah Remaja comic. I drew him with long, Kagamine twins yellow hair and basically, he looks like Rin, okay?

Mimi looks like a longer haired version of Len. Both of them would look the same if they let their hair down. Mimi ties hers in Hatsune Miku ponytails while Zack does it like a samurai! * you know, the long, spiky looking hair?...let me just find a scanner and then you'll be able to see it*

Is now trying to draw the bikini properly

Your Friend,

Seiichiro Sano

Yeah, this is a short post...

Deepavali

5/11/10

So it's 5 as I'm writing this

Just came back from my tata's ( grandfather in Indian) house. I had lunch there, ate some vegetarian chicken..I don;t know how they make it or classify myself. I'll try asking dad later!

I'm currently chilling in the sea side chalet....and its too bright to take any pics, I;ll try when its a little later.

Currently watching Australia, its a very interesting movie...and my dad changed it! HAIYA!!!! I WANNA SEE!

He's currently watching a guy getting hit in the cock one too many times. and I'm laughing out loud..but disappointed in watching it...I wanna watch Australia....

YES, He changed it~! And Nicole Kidman's seeing a kangaroo...and is awed by it...and then, BAM!

It gets shot! Roling on the floor laughing...and she trying to not watch Hugh Jakman take a bath. TRUE CLASSIC!

Their talking about horses and she think its about..you know what! ( and I'm laughing, again)

My mom's collage friend meet up with her...and bought her a KFC meal while we were starving in the hotel chalet will little to no food...really, damn my life! Its the same everytime we come where...no food...* mouth waters at the thought of food*

SHE THOUGHT I WAS A BOY! \>^

I was wearing my white short sleeved hoodie with a tank top/ camisoul in it...and of course my hair~~ Haaa, so damn proud~!

THis is how I'm supposed to look * side view of it*

*

How do I look? Sorry for the low light condition, there's only so much you can do with a webcam.

My cousins were there today, the hockey players! Anisha and Ganesha, the power duo, what I call them!

Ganesha is already taller that my dad by one inch and Anesha is almost the same height as my dad so they were making a big fuss about it. And I'm sulking because....well, they're taller than me...even if it doesn't show that much...OKAY, it DOES show that much.* sulking mode*

After dinner at a shop, we went back to tata's house for the 2nd time in the day. I was pretty shocked when I saw the actor that acted as Sivaji and was the main actor in the new hit movie ( at least to my friends...I only saw sneak peaks because...I don't know?) Indegram. He was....hairless! And he looked pretty weird.

My uncle, Ramu, was kinda showing off because my dad asked him to. He did all the breakdancing and things that I would rather be photographer to than rather doing it...too tiring and it could do the bad type of wonders to my already weak back ( yes, I have the back of a 75 year old because of all the heavy lifting I do and no proper excercise...yeah, I"M PAHTETIC, :)*

My cousin...who is a few cm's to be taller than me ( yes, I'm still sulking...comment all you want. I hate being average height...in a family ( father's side at least...) that excels in sports and most of them are above 175cm, excluding my tata and pati, wanted to take a picture of me. Her friends wanted to see 'that tomboy'. Lord knows what she told the audience of perverted chinese students ( she told me itself, okay!)

She's kinda like the total opposite of me and she's also a person who likes anime but she's kinda of a late bloomer in anime. She started to watch anime at the age of 9, while some of us

*Coff*me*coff* started watching at the age of 4.

She started with Card Captor Sakura, I started with Samurai X. I like shonen, action anime, and she likes shojo, cutesy, girly animes. Not that I can say that all of them are bad. Ouran High School Host club is pretty nice to watch, with Tamaki and Hikaru ( or was it Kaoru?) falling in love in the funniest ways with Haruhi...which I am so damn jelous of because she's flat ( sarcastic laugh)

And now I'm back in the hotel chalet, laying down on the day bed, no blanket and the aircond is probly going at 16 celcius...and I'm freezing, no damn blanket ( stupid useless hotel! Your supposed to give us the room that we bought! Haiz...damn my life) while waiting for Too Fast, To Furious ( the first one) to play back after the midnight news on TV3

( a TV station that has no respect for anime fans...they keep on repeating the damn anime episodes! To the offcials that may read this post, FUCK YOU! * waves middle finger while giving the middle finger salute to them*) while listening to a music list fulled with the Nico Nico Chorus's that I downloaded yesterday oth of pure bordome.

AND it's back on! Bye bi for tonight!

6/11/10

Woke up..had some tea ( my dad and BroAho finished the Milo...) and is now currently writing the blog post.

And this is me chilling aftet taking my bath.

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I have Beast's Shock playing. I tried to dance the

Man Man Ha Ni by U-kiss in the bathroom while taking my morning shower ( with HOT WATER! I don't have it at home and if you want it you have to boil it myself. Because of that, I don't really get sick alot since it boosts my body immune system...or something my 3rd grade BM teacher, Encik Halid said to me years ago) and

I pretty much failed at it! * laughs manicly*

My dad told me off because my pants were kinda falling off my hips * but it;s like that! I forgot to pack my belt along! Maybe he didn't notice it before) The green cargo pants that can be used for cosplays of Dino and Spanner * sadly, no green top* Let me show you a picture of it, ok?

There's no difference, right?

Currently at my mom's friends house, she's a real nice person.

Spent an hour at there then went out for dinner at this place that sells this thing called Nasi Arab. Since there wer five of us, we got a HUGE plate of rice and a whole chicken. Its very cheap, being only RM 56 for a whole set of the rice, chicken cold water, Shai ( tea mixed with mint, it's pretty sweet and makes the meal less tiring to eat) and apple juice from Arab. If you tried to get something like that from KL, I'm sure that it would cause a heck of a lot more!

And that shop was called Nasi Arab Damsyik. It's seems to be a popular place, there were already a lot of people when we got there but there were more after we finished. Sorry, webcam can't take night pictures so I can't take any pictures without it being black mush...Hais, I really need a proper camera! ( I want a DSL...)

My BroAho is watching Pucha on Disney ( we don't have Astro at home and the ariel's busted big time..so yeah, we live without watching the news...or even cartoons), Dad's in the toilet, sitting in the tub ( they have a jacuzzi thingy in here! Or at least the tub....) and I am perfectly wasted because of the Arab Rice...

After not really eating a meal for the whole day, something like that is a shock for the system...but we still have some pizza that I ordered from the hotel for lunch, which was the first time trying to order something from the hotel...after about 5 mins trying to get the coffee house's number, my dad finally told me that I have to call the operator first, then she'll patch me to room sevice, and the leftovers of the Arab Rice.

And one of Matryoshka's Nico Nico Choruses is playing...its nice listening to the song. It's currently high tide now, with the gentle sea waves swaying ( is that they way to explain it?), it's pretty peaceful here. A firework erupts once in a while, because it's the second day of Deepavali.

A gentle breeze sometimes blows..you can't really feel it here because it';s getting blocked by all the chalets, but from the second floor car park and the as you comeout of the hall way that leads you to the chalets, you can seriously feel it. And there's a waft of barbeque! At leasat from the carpark.

I'm here, feeling the breeze that is kinda non-existant...while writing this blog post alone. Haa, life is good, no? Have to lower the screen brightness if I want the battery to last longer.

Haiz...well, I'm off for tonight, I wanna try and draw something...but I hear this weird kind of music...and I'm not sure if it's coming from Glorry Beach Resort ( the hotel that has the whole beach to itself and is right next to this one) or it maybe a mermaid song...you never know!

Maybe I'll meet Ariel! * laughs manicly again*

But if your alone...this place seems kinda scary...Oh, WHAT ON EARTH AM I TALKING ABOUT!!! BAD THOUGHTS, BAD THOUGHTS!

But it wouldn't be so bad if the Flying Dutchman or the Black Pearl comes right up to my balchony and kidnapes me. That'd be nice, even if there only nasty pirates and theres no internet there at all * unless you have the GPS thingy that allows you to hack into the millitary that I don't think they have it in reality*

7/11/10

I spent around 30 mins today to take some pictures of the resort. Well, some of them are blurry and it was difficult to take the pictures...and people were looking weirdly at me so eyah. Nothing much to write about yet.

Okay, it starts off with me...I didn't take my bath yet so thats why I have bed hair that I can't really fix. My hair is naturally curly so its like that. When its longer than my shoulder, it turns curly...WHen I was a kid it was even more curly.

Check out my tumblr account for all these pics * uploading it into blogger is a pain because I can't seem to upload many pictures at one time without a disaster happening*

http://1827addiction.tumblr.com/

Life as we know it, is vile and vicious

This is for you guys so that you don't get bored! A little sneak peak at what I do to release rage~~

Remember, just because I use the names of my friends ( I ran out of ideas on names and decided to just use those that are here), doesn't mean I feel anything for the except for friendship, okay? THIS STORY WILL BE YURI and YAOI....with a couple of straights. So if you don't like it, don't read it

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Useless. That's what I am.

" Stupid! You can't get this simple equation right!" my father barked

Stupid? Yeah, I guess I am.

" You Buffoon! You don't even know how to do this properly?!" my mother shouted

Seriously, I did it just now. Those are leftover’s.

" Sano, why don't you stay a bit later?" a close friend asks

Because my mother comments on it and me when I come back a little late hurts my feelings. A lot.

" Sano! Fold your damn headscarf!" a teacher says

I'm only wearing it because the school asked us to. And I'm pretty sure that it hates me too. Just look at it, it goes crazy every time I try to make it better.

" Idiot! You can't even draw properly! You call this art?! This is shit compared to mine!" a person commented

Fuck them. Selfish fuck-tard. Who cares about your art? I'm doing mine happily and you're in my fucking way.

My name is Seiichiro Sano. I am 13 years old. I am a useless tomboy who looks and sounds feminine, not to mention being a short person who doesn't seem to be growing taller. Standing at 159 cm, I have to look up to many people, even if it doesn't really show when I'm near the older guys who are tall.

I have pimples on my face and back. I can't look like a proper guy no matter how hard I try. Most people don't accept me for who I am. If I could cut myself, maybe I'd already be doing it. But...there's no use for that. How the fuck am I supposed to explain it to the friends that are always by my side? The few that like me the way I am, accept me for what I am and want to be friends? What am I going to tell them?

" Oh, I've just cut myself cuz this world hates me, except you guys"

They'd go crying, I swear. Or just beat the shit out of me because I was harming myself.

Anything seems better than what I'm having now. This...stupid thing called depression in life. I hate it. Everyone expects me to be the best. The best student. The best daughter. The best child. The best artist. But no one really pays attention to what I'm feeling.

People don't realize that I tend to hide my feelings under a mask of monotone. An " I don't care" facade. I smile and blend into the crowd. I try my best to be myself in a world full of bitches and

bastards. But, what do I get out of it?

This.

This depression.

Bandar Country Homes is a boring place. Nothing much to do. Let's just place ourselves in Namimori, where there are some places like the shopping mall that you can actually go to on foot.

I walk along the peaceful road. It's quiet, the only thing making noises are the wind and leaves blowing to create a symphony that only a depressed individual can comprehend. I look at the sky, cold and grey. My hoodie flaps around and I am forced to zip it properly to prevent it from

flying away and making me suffer hypothermia. Brrr...That’ll be cold.

I blast my headphones with SID, Kenny G, On/Off, Wakashima Kanon, Linkin' Park, Simple Plan, The band Perry, F.T Island, the works. Currently, it's Otegami by SID playing, which makes me mellow out. It sooths my soul, carries it with the wind, taking it away from my body. I just walk pointlessly on a cold and windy autumn day.

Yeah. I'm starting to develop a mental disease, if you want to ask. I'm perfectly insane.

I reach the stairs that go up to Namimori Shrine. Wow...did I walk for that long? I decide to walk up there, for no particular reason. Maybe it’s because Rob Thomas's Lonely No More is playing. The trees have all turned a lovely shade of red and gold. At least to my rotten mind.

I climb up, legs burning and begging for mercy. I realize that I'm tripping on my cargo pants so fold them up to my shins. Cold air whips my legs and I inhale sharply. It's like daggers to my skin. But I like the pain. I can take it.

It's. No. Fucking. Biggie. I'm. Fine.

I guess my skin's sensitive. Or is it because I nearly scrubbed them off when I took my bath this morning out of frustration. Out of boredom. Out of Curiosity. Ha-ha. I think I need a

psychologist to look at me.

The shrine...is big. And cozy. And peaceful. I aimlessly look everywhere, like a brain dead zombie. As I walk, I find a few monks, wearing those cool robes that you see on Genjo Sanzo. You know, that blond priest in Sayuki. The one that always carries a gun. The look at me with interest. A rather tall one approves me...making me feel very puny.

" What is wrong child? I since that you are troubled" he asks me.

" I've just come here to...to..." I can't say anything so I ran away. I hear him call back for me but I didn't care. He'd probably tell me to repent or something like that. I've had my own share of sins. I'm not going to back down.

Ironically, Paramore's Ignorance is vibrating through my headphones. What a nice song choice. I find myself singing to the tune of the song, shouting it out. For once, I forgot about my worthless life and just put my head into running. Just running. Getting out of this hellhole I call life.

I finally reach the end of Namimori.

One more step, and I'm into Shimon. Great. If I go there, I'll have to deal with Kozato Enma, another Dame-person like myself. I look behind and see lights start to come up. I guess I've been out longer than I notice. One thing's for sure, I'm not going back home tonight. I'm never going home, back to boring Bandar Country Homes. Back to the house I've lived in for ten years. Back to...my old life.

I walk back, feeling chilly as the night creeps and darkness falls. I know that it's not safe. But, who can beat me? I'm in a state of mind that allows me to forget about everything and focus on something. If I did it on killing, I think I could go on for hours, despite being hurt. My mp3 player was still playing. It's amazing that the batteries could withstand this long. Kat-Tun's

Butterfly was playing.

Besides, I already disguised myself as a guy. My emo-ish hair was drenched in sweat because of the running. I had cut my hair at the usual place, asking the short Chinese dude to make a buzz cut at the sides and back so that it'd take longer for the hair to grow back. A long strip of my hair hanged on my forehead and down, slightly covering my left eye. I look totally like a guy for once.

Ha! If only Kyoko-chan and ThoAho could see me now. The dark chocolate hair that everyone liked was gone. It was now a bright orange. My eyes were mismatched, one blue and the other red. Yeah, I'm cosplaying my OC. So what? I did it so that no one would notice it was me.

Luckily I brought a sleeping bag in my bag pack and some snacks. Yay, I seem to have three packets of pocky, a packet of Cheerios, a packet of potato chips in BBQ flavor and some extras. Looks like the saving paid off. I'd survive my dinner now and brunch tomorrow. I look into my wallet and see the bills that I stole from my dad's pocket. I know, it's stealing but the man owes me some money and stuff so this considered fair and square.

Hmm...I could only survive a week even if I'm conservative...maybe this wasn't such a good idea.

To hell with that, I'm never going back. Kyoko-chan, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm going to leave you alone to face the world, more like I'm leaving myself to face to worls. You have Usagi-chan anyways. She's way better than I am. Man, for once, I'm glad that I don't have a boyfriend or a real girlfriend, since I liked Kyoko-chan but I couldn't tell her. They'd be sad. I don't want anyone to feel bad about me because, I don't deserve it. Their love. Their affections. Their passion.

I don't fucking deserve it.

I swear, it dropped a few degrees. I hope I don't get a cold. I pull my hood on and shove my hands into my pockets. It's cold. And I'm 100% miserable.

My breath starts to show, misty, creepy. This reminds me of a part of a cartoon I saw a long time ago. What was it? My Dad's A Rock Star? The main character and his friend go into a basement. The friend says that " People say that if you can see your breath, it means..." I forgot the rest. What a loser.

Arashi's Dear Snow plays now. It's nice. I never knew I had this song on my play list. I look up to the already dark sky, a few stars come into my vision. It's very beautiful. I wish I had a proper camera to take a pic of it.

I hum and sing along with the joyful song. At least to me it's joyful. Maybe I really need to see that psychologist after all...

As I turn into a corner, I bump into a rock hard abdomen and fall down. My head hurts. My headphones dislodge themselves from my ears and I notice how quiet it is.

" OY! HOW DARE YOU BUMP INTO OUR BOSS!" a man shouts. I grimace. It's been almost a day since I've heard a real voice and not just singing.

I look at him with low interest. Suits. Tall. Tattoo on neck and hands. Blond. Calvone's 10th, Dino Chiavarone

" Nah, it's okay! I don't think he did it in purpose, right ragazzo?" his voice resonates through the wind.

" I'm sorry" I whisper, getting up and brushing my hands against my pants legs.

" It's okay! What are you doing here all alone? It's dangerous!" he asks, worry lacing his voice.

Urgh. I don't deserve it

" I'm running away...from my old life and starting a new one" I say, my voice low and solemn.

Lower than it usually is.

" But, you’re freezing! I'm sure that your parents---" he begins to say, still using that worried

tone.

Anger laces my mind.

" My parents wouldn't give a shit about me! I bet no one really cares about me! Don't be worried about me, I don't deserve it!" I shout and run. Is this all that I'm good at? Running?

He calls out to me and runs after me. " Wait! WAIT!" his subordinates run after him.

I run as fast as my abused legs could go, headphones banging against my neck. I twist and turn in the unfamiliar neighbor hood.

Seriously, I'm not going to last for long if this keeps on. I'm already tired as it is. When I finally

look back, I saw no one running to me. Not a soul.

I look at a bridge. It has a bank and some land under it. I guess that's where I'll bunk for tonight. I tiredly walk there and collapse on the ground. I can't move. I can't feel anything. I slowly fall asleep, not caring about anything. My eyes flutter to a close.

I hope I don't get mugged.

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Going back

Going to my hometown in Port Dickson for Deepavali!

No internet for a couple of days but I will take plenty of pictures for you! * if I can la...*

Love you all, bye!

Your Friend,

Seiichiro Sano

Stupid prefect meeting...and a pretty much boring day...=+='''

IZAYA X KIDA~~

So, today is very boring....* falls asleep*

* Other Sano walks in*

Okay, so we had to go early to school for a photography session of the prefects...and it was a complete waste of our time =+=''''

I arrived just a few mins before the teacher called us...and 7 were not there. So we waited. and Waited. And waited....until everyone was there and they only took two lousy pictures that we had to pay RM 1 for! Lousy rip off!!!!

One interesting this that happened was there was, yet another possesion case at school, and yes, it was a Malay girl...and yes, she was screaming her head off even after one of the school's ustadz tried to cure her....the girls were kinda spooked from the screaming voices...that could be heard well over 10 meters away ^_^

Hehe, COOL! * looking at a weirdo here, don't mind him*

So, we had our all time fav Agama! * scarcastic as hell*

I had a pretty hard time doing it...it was hard...because well, I didn't touch a page of it since I sent in the whole damn green note book for agama...which I had to complete 51 pages in like a day for nothing since we could have give it in on Friday..which I thought we had to give it in on Thursday...and I spent like 8 hours trying to finish it -_-''''

During the sivik exam however, that was a whole different thing.

I finished the paper in 10 minutes flat and made a beeline for the small stack of paper that I had at my side. Suprisingly, the teacher didn't take it away or anything...maybe they knew that I liked to draw...

So I drew a Hibari * the skylark, not the prefect* in flight and a beach pic for the current Sano and the gang

It starts off with François in his full glory * use your imagination* looking at some rather busty women with a grin on his face * HEY, I LOVE SANO!" " Not in this one. You'll only start to like him/her after you have a fever and she/he will take care of you! :3" " Stupid, peverted, daft prick...damn bakayarou"*

Sano wears a racer back tank top and is looking at François with the classical grim lines and teardrop.

Besides him/her is Santa with her long hair...who is sulking because you can't really wear headphones without them getting wet while on the beach, right?

Cross...is has the mentality of a five year old and is raising his hands up in the air and is somewhere between laughing his head off and....being autistic * tries to hold off laugh*

So yeah, I had fun drawing that! And when I looked up, it was 10 mins before school's over and I was like YEAH!!!! DRAWING PAYS!

So yeah, nothing interesting for today...maybe something good will happen tomorow...

Your Friend,

Seiichiro Sano

* Blogger is turning against me...I can't use the pretty colours...*